Hey there, partner,
I don’t know about you, but I think I have a problem—I talk a lot. Like, an unhealthy amount. Sometimes, I just talk without thinking, and when I say “sometimes,” I mean about 70% of the time. I hate it. It’s starting to affect the way people see me. I don’t mind random people saying things like:
“You talk a lot.”
“Can you shut up?”
“Nigga, have you eaten a goddamn radio?”
Honestly, those comments don’t affect me mentally. But I do care about how people I’ve developed friendships with see me. I don’t want to be the annoying guy or the one the teacher views as a retard. I don’t want my friends to be annoyed with me. I’m trying—really trying—to just shut up. And I manage to for a day or two, but then I get comments like:
“Do you hear it? Silence at last.”
“omg, YOU can shut up!!!”
“Congratulations.”
The comments don’t bother me either, but what really gets to me is not talking. It doesn’t make me sad, just unhappy. I hate it. I want to be able to stay quiet and feel content in the silence. I don’t know... I’m kind of lost. I really just hope I can help myself in the future.